The Serenity Prayer is famous for being a prayer for addicts. It is a cornerstone prayer for many programs that aid people in their recovery. The Serenity Prayer is a life prayer. More and more I am finding that in my life, these words resonant deeply with me when I am stressed or overwhelmed by life circumstances.
The other night I was feeling frustrated. That day I had been asked several questions regarding things that I had no control over. I understood that those who were asking were only trying to connect with me and take an interest in my life. It bothered me that I was so upset by it.
When others ask about things that I have no control over, I feel my stress levels rise, and I begin to feel hopeless. I find myself looking frantically outside of my path to find an easy way out. I wonder if I am hearing God correctly, or if I am completely delusional, and this is not what he meant when he asked me to trust him. I doubt and lose focus. These feelings and subsequent actions are not what he wants for me. He said to trust in him with all of my heart and lean NOT on my own understanding! Does that sound like he wants to me to be frantic, lose focus, and jump ship?
I am allowing myself to become worked up over something I cannot change.
I am allowing myself to lose my courage over something I cannot change.
I am allowing myself to lose wisdom over something I cannot change.
Times of disequilibrium is when prayer, even a pre-written prayer, becomes the time of refocusing. We allow ourselves to fall into his arms and rest while our Father reminds us that he has this all under control.
It is not in my control.
It is in the Father's control.
And, who knows better?
Yeah. I would much rather give control over to the Creator of the Universe; the One Abraham called the Most High God, the One who sits above the circle of the Earth, the One who holds life in the palm of his hand. I think that makes much more sense than to attempt to control something that is truly beyond my control.
Questions will come, and I will not have the answers to all of them. Having perfect answers is not required of me. As God brought this subject to my attention, he also reminded me of a song that has been a source of comfort to me in the past. The chorus of this song says, "All I ever have to be is what you made me. Any more or less would be a step out of your plan. As you daily recreate me, help me always keep in mind that I only have to do what I can find. All I ever have to be; all I have to be; all I ever have to be is what you made me."
In Hebrew, this means "our dance". It is through our dance that healing in found. Come before the throne and dance for your King!